We had been staying alone for almost 4 years. I was looking forward to my husband’s next move. March he came to spend a month with us. He was to go back for two weeks and then we were supposed to go along with him to our next station.
I had been thinking and waiting for this for almost six months. Everyday counting days…. But there really was nothing missing in my life. I had it all. A comfortable house, house help, beautiful surroundings, economic independence, mobility. I could go where I wanted to when I wanted to.
But yet I enjoyed none of what I had. I was too overwhelmed for the future.
About a week before he was to come back, lockdown was announced. It was indefinite. The situation was tense. We had no idea how the spread was going to be. No idea how long the lockdown would continue.
And once more I started waiting for the uncertain future…. And now the uncertainity and anxiety was even more….
All through this my meditation did help me. It helped me remind myself to be in the moment. To stay centered.
One big lesson I learnt was that one needs to live one day at a time.
Enjoy what you have in front of you. Life is bound to be uncertain. There always is something that we await in the future. But in the wait for that day, are you missing to live this day?
Are you missing all the joy that is their around you right now?
Are you being just to yourself and to all that you are blessed with?
I was a dreamer and as a dreamer I would plan for days ahead. And that can be quite disappointing if it takes away the joy of the present moment from your life.
So does that mean we have to stop planning?
No absolutely not. Planning is essential. Because a part of future depends on the present.
But one needs to pull oneself back from the future into the present. Eventually we can only live the present. So do what you can to be here and now.
The past pulls us down. It makes us nostalgic, sad or anxious. And so does the future. The present is in your control…. and when you are living the day you would never feel anxious. Present is the only time you can control.
So live one day at a time. Do not jump into the future. Relish this day…. and then you would see all your life would be beautiful and something you relish.
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