Turning 40!

by ruchikasandell · Published July 28, 2020 · Updated July 28, 2020

When I was younger, 40 seemed like… old! But this year when I turn 40, old is nowhere close to what I feel. And aren’t we as old as we feel. Lol! I guess I am 16 till I die 😉

Jokes apart, life really flies by. I cannot believe I am 40, already. But when I look more closely… in the person that I am now, I can see and feel the difference. This me is so much different than me at 20 or 30. We are changing everyday, our experiences are shaping us.

So what really does 40 mean to me? I do feel much more wiser. My aggression has settled down. I would give up an argument, and on most days not even get close to a discussion, for the sake of my peace of mind. Most days I also feel much more grounded. Of course a lot of change occurs when you become a parent.

I still want to have that bikini body, but that is not because I want to flaunt it with skimpy sexy clothes. I want a bikini body, because I know I would be fitter. And I want that so that I can continue to be strong even as I grow old. Being a mom of a 5 year old at 40, I feel very anxious how would I cope as I age. I want to be fighting fit to guide my daughter when she had need me.

I am very proud of my age. I love to flaunt that I am 40. I am not sure if that is strange. I know most people believe that women like to hide their age. But I really see no reason why I must? I am definitely proudly 40.

I guess being the mom of a 5 year old could be the reason I do not feel old at all. Most mom’s around me are much younger. The bright side of having a baby late, you stay younger longer, lol.

I am also thinking about the 40 years I spent on this planet. When I think of that it dawns upon me that 40 is a long long time. Of course that is the age of the physical body. I am sure my soul is much much older than that.

I celebrate this 40th birthday with deep gratitude to everything that I have received in my life. I am so grateful to the almighty for giving me such a comfortable life. I know I have complained and cried many a times for the hardships that I faced along the way. But I was also always aware that hardships are a part of life. Part of a journey of the soul, to bring the transformation that we were born for. Nevertheless, complaining is thy nature human!

But yes at this beautiful juncture of turning 40, I am going to move ahead with lot of grace. I shall always remember henceforth that my stay on this planet is indeed a short one. I am not going to be here forever. I shall remember what a beautiful gift it is to be born a human.

I was born to awesome parents and I am so much in gratitude to them that they made me into this human being that I am today. I had an awesome childhood. My experiences from my childhood made me a person who lays extremely high importance on family bonding. Even today I cherish so much the lovely time we have spent together as a family. I hope I can match it up for my daughter.

40 feels good. People say life starts at 40, don’t really know what they mean, but I do see life differently.